VLCD#2 Released 2.8!

Another great day on protocol. I am trying to keep myself busy and away from the TV, which is when I tend to snack mindlessly. I was hoping to not go out to dinner at all for my round, but we are going out to dinner with my husbands boss and his wife Saturday night and I completely forgot about it. We are going to PF Changs and I plan on getting a chicken and veggie dish or shrimp and veggie, so depending how I handle myself at dinner Saturday will determine if I will be rewarding myself for next weeks reward.

I am going to do a detox bath tonight....looking forward to it. And also interested to see if it affects the scale tomorrow. I cannot believe it is March already. I will be starting a new position at work in June and I am really excited. No more teaching preschool, which is a little bittersweet. I love the kids and the job, but I also love change and teaching preschool takes immense commitment and patience.

Our center just moved 2 weeks ago and our new building is awesome. It actually has a reception area that I will mainly be working in with my new job at work. Hope everyone has a great week!

VLCD#1 again.....

I cannot believe how much I let myself go! I've gained a lot since October and I have no one to blame but myself. Today went really good. I think I am at the point where I am sick of my clothes fitting tight again and I'm sick of feeling like crap. I am also sick of people saying that HHCG is worthless. If it didn't work, people would be walking around like zombies because their systems would be in starvation mode....they would barely be able to function! UGH...so frustrating. Some guy on facebook really got under my skin...I was about to go off but I bit my tongue and deleted him off my friends list.

Here's the thing folks....if you are looking for support you also need to offer it and not shoot down what works for other people, just because it's not something you do. Jeez! People are so rude sometimes I just wanna flick em' in the head!!

Ok, enough of that. I am rewarding myself to an hour massage on Friday if I can make it through the week without cheating! Can't wait. I haven't had a massage in years!

Hope everyone has a great week, whatever phase you are on.

The countdown is on....

I have been planning out my weight loss plan for the next 9 weeks, 61 days to be exact. I will be doing a planned interuption in 3 weeks for my husbands birthday in April but after that it is back to the plan.

I want to get this weight off and do not want to do another round again. I have been going back and forth....should I just take my time and count calories and excercise or do HCG and get it off quick.....my decision; the next 9 weeks are going to go by whether I do this or not, might as well get it over with before summer gets here. I plan on being at my goal by mid may. Thats 65 pounds. I will be cutting it very close, but typically I drop the most weight in the first week to two weeks on HCG. The first week is typically 9-12 pounds! My goal weight is 170. I have never been 170 before so I honestly don't know what to expect.

I'm a little nervous finding out what the "thinner" me looks like since I have been heavy for most of my life. It's kinda like meeting the pen pal that you know everything about and know you click with, but meeting them in person is so nerve wrecking.

I have my game plan, I have the tools to get me there.....I just need to take it day by day!

Anyone know who has motivation on sale??

Ever wish you could just run to the store and buy some motivation? I wish it was that simple....you run out, you get some more and thats that. I am mentally preparing myself to take on the week, but at the same time I keep saying one day at a time, not one week at a time!

I just need to get through the enxt 3 weeks without giving in. I have a gift certificate for a massage left from my birthday that I haven't used. I have been waiting for a good time to use it. I also have one for a mini facial I got as a Xmas gift from work. I think I am going to use one on Friday as a reward to myself for making it through the week. Then, next week I will use the other one as a reward. On the 3rd week maybe I will go get a pedi, since I really need one. That will give me something to look forward to each week!

NON-food rewards!!! I have so many cute clothes that are too small right now that if I just buckle down and suck it up, I will be able to wear them this summer.

I can do this, I can do this, I can do this.

ugh!!!

I am starting my round again on Monday and I WILL complete the 3 week round I WILL not go out to eat one time and I WILL follow protocol for the entire 21 days! NO EXCEPTIONS. We are going away for my husbands birthday in April and I would like to be 20 pounds lighter by then. I have really been struggling with a mental argument with myself;

one side says; I think I might just count calories and excercise
The other side says; why would you do that when you can do HCG and lose twice as much in half the time?

UGH! What a struggle it is to be fat and want to be thin more than anything, yet being fat is so easy. Well, I'm done letting my fat thoughts do the talking, I'm done listening to that side, I'm going to start listening to the thin person I know is in there.

R4 p2 vlcd#9 bad kris!

So yesterday was an epic fail...i did a video at lunch (which failed tp upload) yesterday because I was overwhelmed by all the valentines cookies, candies, cupcakes that I had to leave work for awhile...i went to the gas station, got a water and went back to work. By 5pm, I was struggling! Being the last one at work, alone with all those delicious treats pushed me over the edge. I gave in, and it wasn't pretty.

So today I am, yet again struggling. But I WILL NOT do it again. This whole process is so hard and memories of that from my first round are coming back. I did this once, I can do it again.

R4 P2 VLCD 7- gained :(

So as you all know it was a busy weekend for me; friday night my husband and I planned on going out for a steak, however everywhere we went was a huge wait. So we ended up going to a Mongolian BBQ place where you fill your bowl up with veggies and meat, noodles if you want, (although I did not have any noodles) and they stir fry it on the huge grills. I expected a gain Saturday morning just from all of the veggies. However I was pleased to find I released a pound!

Saturday we got up and took my daughter to her girl scouts function, went to look at new tires for my car, ran a few errands and had lunch at a restaurant near the mall. I had a grilled chicken salad, didn't use much of the dressing at all, so I felt confident with that. However, later that night since we were celebrating valentines day, we went and had fajitas, no tortilla's and I did have some chips and salsa and a margarita :( After that we met my aunt for drinks and I had a beer and this coffee drink that had khalua in it. (very yummy might I add), but I had a gain this morning......2.6!!! YIKES! I should probably confess that my aunt had ordered an artichoke dip that came with bread and I had about 3 pieces :(

.....so I deserved that gain. But did great Sunday, so I am hoping I lose it by Monday morning. I will be back to do a vlog in the morning......g'nite. IT'S GANNA BE A GREAT WEEK!!!!