The countdown is on....

I have been planning out my weight loss plan for the next 9 weeks, 61 days to be exact. I will be doing a planned interuption in 3 weeks for my husbands birthday in April but after that it is back to the plan.

I want to get this weight off and do not want to do another round again. I have been going back and forth....should I just take my time and count calories and excercise or do HCG and get it off quick.....my decision; the next 9 weeks are going to go by whether I do this or not, might as well get it over with before summer gets here. I plan on being at my goal by mid may. Thats 65 pounds. I will be cutting it very close, but typically I drop the most weight in the first week to two weeks on HCG. The first week is typically 9-12 pounds! My goal weight is 170. I have never been 170 before so I honestly don't know what to expect.

I'm a little nervous finding out what the "thinner" me looks like since I have been heavy for most of my life. It's kinda like meeting the pen pal that you know everything about and know you click with, but meeting them in person is so nerve wrecking.

I have my game plan, I have the tools to get me there.....I just need to take it day by day!

Anyone know who has motivation on sale??

Ever wish you could just run to the store and buy some motivation? I wish it was that simple....you run out, you get some more and thats that. I am mentally preparing myself to take on the week, but at the same time I keep saying one day at a time, not one week at a time!

I just need to get through the enxt 3 weeks without giving in. I have a gift certificate for a massage left from my birthday that I haven't used. I have been waiting for a good time to use it. I also have one for a mini facial I got as a Xmas gift from work. I think I am going to use one on Friday as a reward to myself for making it through the week. Then, next week I will use the other one as a reward. On the 3rd week maybe I will go get a pedi, since I really need one. That will give me something to look forward to each week!

NON-food rewards!!! I have so many cute clothes that are too small right now that if I just buckle down and suck it up, I will be able to wear them this summer.

I can do this, I can do this, I can do this.

ugh!!!

I am starting my round again on Monday and I WILL complete the 3 week round I WILL not go out to eat one time and I WILL follow protocol for the entire 21 days! NO EXCEPTIONS. We are going away for my husbands birthday in April and I would like to be 20 pounds lighter by then. I have really been struggling with a mental argument with myself;

one side says; I think I might just count calories and excercise
The other side says; why would you do that when you can do HCG and lose twice as much in half the time?

UGH! What a struggle it is to be fat and want to be thin more than anything, yet being fat is so easy. Well, I'm done letting my fat thoughts do the talking, I'm done listening to that side, I'm going to start listening to the thin person I know is in there.

R4 p2 vlcd#9 bad kris!

So yesterday was an epic fail...i did a video at lunch (which failed tp upload) yesterday because I was overwhelmed by all the valentines cookies, candies, cupcakes that I had to leave work for awhile...i went to the gas station, got a water and went back to work. By 5pm, I was struggling! Being the last one at work, alone with all those delicious treats pushed me over the edge. I gave in, and it wasn't pretty.

So today I am, yet again struggling. But I WILL NOT do it again. This whole process is so hard and memories of that from my first round are coming back. I did this once, I can do it again.

R4 P2 VLCD 7- gained :(

So as you all know it was a busy weekend for me; friday night my husband and I planned on going out for a steak, however everywhere we went was a huge wait. So we ended up going to a Mongolian BBQ place where you fill your bowl up with veggies and meat, noodles if you want, (although I did not have any noodles) and they stir fry it on the huge grills. I expected a gain Saturday morning just from all of the veggies. However I was pleased to find I released a pound!

Saturday we got up and took my daughter to her girl scouts function, went to look at new tires for my car, ran a few errands and had lunch at a restaurant near the mall. I had a grilled chicken salad, didn't use much of the dressing at all, so I felt confident with that. However, later that night since we were celebrating valentines day, we went and had fajitas, no tortilla's and I did have some chips and salsa and a margarita :( After that we met my aunt for drinks and I had a beer and this coffee drink that had khalua in it. (very yummy might I add), but I had a gain this morning......2.6!!! YIKES! I should probably confess that my aunt had ordered an artichoke dip that came with bread and I had about 3 pieces :(

.....so I deserved that gain. But did great Sunday, so I am hoping I lose it by Monday morning. I will be back to do a vlog in the morning......g'nite. IT'S GANNA BE A GREAT WEEK!!!!

R4 P2 VLCD#5, Back in the 220's again!

Released 1.2!! I am totally shocked, only because we went out for Mexican last night and I got steak fajitas (minus the tortillas). I was really nervous because I wasn't sure about the oil they would be cooked in, not to mention it had onions AND green pepp's. Even though I only ate a few of the peppers and took half home. But I also had the equivalent of about 2 teaspoons of guac and about the same for sour cream. Plus some chips and salsa!! So, needless to say I was more than shocked have any release today!! Phew! We will most likely be going out to dinner again tonight and I am planning on a half a steak, since typically the smallest steak you can get is a 6oz., and some veggies. I'm really gonna try to push the water today too. So, I am at 8.8 lost for the week so far! YAY! I am hoping to lose another 2 #'s by Sunday, which will only inch me closer to my low weight in October of 217. So depending on how that goes, I will set my new goals for the upcoming week!

I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend, I know I will!!! I will be back to do a vlog Monday Morning.

R4 VLCD#3 Still in the game

Mark it on your calandar, I am still on VLCD. I repeat, I am still on VLCD! I released 2.8 this morning, YAY! I am a firm believer in my philosophy that you have to be mentally raady to take on this protocol or it doesn't work. And so far that has been the truth. The first time I did HCG I was so ready. I had just gotten back from vacation, I felt bloated, fat, uncomfortable, and ashamed of myself. I was so ready for a change. I think you get to a point where you get almost angry that you have to keep watching wjat you eat so closely that you go into burn-out mode. I believe thats what I did towards the end of 2010. A month ago,  I wasn't ready to take this on again. But I still have a lot of work to do becuase when I reach my goal, and I will, I can't go back to the way I used to eat!

So, it's Wednesday, halfway through the week, tomorrow is my last full day of work. Lets finish off this awesome week, shall we!! I will post a video tomorrow morning :)

Kris